I get it... some days are HARD! Heck some years are hard! I was there, stuck in a place of fear, anger and frustration. And I felt so lost, I didn't know how to get out. But I did. It didn't happen overnight. It took a few years, but I made it.
And it wasn't easy, but it was worth it!
I was just talking with some of my #fitchickfam this past weekend and one of the girls asked me how long it took to get better from being exposed to mold for almost 3 years. It took me a second to think about it, but then I realized it took almost a year and half from the time we moved out of the moldy house that I could really start to feel my entire body feel better again! I had more energy and my sleep was so much better. I no longer had dark circles under my eyes and my hormones were starting to normalize...well, as much as they can for a 45 year old!
But if I am to be honest, it's actually been longer for me to get my head back to normal. Not only did my body suffer, but mindset suffered as well. I talked the "big game" a lot. Trying to be okay with where I was. But honestly, I was still in the mindset of being "sick".
I remember talking with one of my trainers who kicks ass all the time and is an inspiration to me!!-- and her telling me to just "get over it" and "just do it!" At the time, I recall being angry with her for not understanding, for not giving me any sympathy, even though I am not one to want a lot of sympathy. I felt like I had gone through so much that people did not understand, and that I should be allowed to say NO to things.
But she knew me better. She knew that I was not one to settle. I was not one to stand down from a challenge. I was tougher than that. And I had lost that tough person. It's still hard... I get emotional just thinking about the person that I became because of my health issues. And still 2 years later, I still struggle with finding that tough person again.
So I have been journaling a lot on this. Why do I still feel this way? What am I afraid of? What is holding me back? It's the fear. Fear of getting sick again. Fear of not getting enough sleep. Fear of feeling like complete shit and trying to hold it all together while I run my business. Fear sucks!!
"Everything you want is on the other side of fear." ~Jack Canfield
So, I wanted to start off 2018 with a theme of such. Something to remind me of how I want to live my year. I wanted to live #FEARLESS again! I wanted to be that person who stepped up to a challenge, instead of hiding. I wanted to be more social and enjoy time with friends, instead of worrying about getting enough sleep. (Well I still like to be in bed early , but that's just a preference!!) I wanted to lead by example (and not just by my words) and show my #FITCHICKFAM that anything is possible if you just have the right mindset!
Just putting it out there... it feels so exhilarating!!! There is so much I want to do to make up for the past 4 years!! I want to be that person that people look up to and think, "Man, she is amazing and kicks ass!".
It's time to take action, because as you know it's the action that truly moves you forward. We can talk about what we want to do until we are blue in the face, but if we do not set that intention into action, we will continue to be stuck.
This year is the year of YOU.. of ME of US!!
Let's push past those fears, those limiting self beliefs, those doubts and move forward!